Saturday, January 31, 2009, 10:45 PM
many randoms and rants
It's been a really really long time since I last posted an entryI've been terribly lazy. Can't be bothered to do anything.
I've decided to play lesser mahjong with D and his friends; since I'm always to one who causes unhappiness.
*ok. start of rants.*
While SOMEONE can piss him off by shouting at him, I can hardly even raise my voice at him without him shouting right back at me. He wasn't pissed at that someone for long ANYWAY. It just took a few drinks before he forgot he said "I won't ever call or play mahjong with her again UNTIL she fucking apologizes!"
I didn't know apologies come in the form of wine. Moreover, I don't even think she was the one who bought the wine. Fucked-up-ness.
Well. I may have tonnes of excuses (as according to him) but I think excuses are sometimes really reasons. Reasons are excuses when you choose not to accept it.
So I guess D's excuse for going for THAT "apologetic" drink was that he was going to eat at Aston's (6th ave) with Wil.
Oh really?
Of so many goddamn places, you'd rather choose to eat at the place NEAREST to Denise (the wine shop) where SOMEONE was having drinks. How COINCIDENTAL. Singapore is REALLY very small leh.
Oh well. Since D doesn't think he has done anything wrong at all, so be it. But, this is one entry whereby I think I'm in the right to be pissed.
My dear D (in case you happen to read my blog, but i think you hardly ever do), YES, I'm pissed. You always say "aiya. you say so many bad things about XXXX, then why do you still hang out with XXXX??". Then, YES, WHY DO YOU STILL WANNA GO FOR THAT DRINK WHEN YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO BE ANGRY AT @#$%^&*??????????????????
And YES, I'm bloody pissed off cuz I WAS SPOT ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Don't you just hate it when something you said happened when you really don't want it to happen??? E.g. When you see a Ferrari speeding down the road, you just casually say " OH. It's gonna get into an accident later. DRIVE SO FAST." and the next instance, you hear a BANG and the Ferrari really crashed. It's like, a curse come true. Even Toto also not so zhun. nabeh.
So, as I was saying, I'm bloody pissed off cuz I was bloody right about what he'll do. Seriously, what he did made me think why I'm not a bloody fortune teller. I should probably start giving you guys 4D numbers right now.
Right before D and I left, @#$%^&* called and asked him if he wants a few drinks cuz she happened to be nearby. In fact, I think it's a stupid EXCUSE cuz @#$%^&*'s house is like 5 mins away from D's.
I really really REALLY shouldn't have eavesdropped. REGRETFULNESS. hmm. It wasn't exactly my fault that the speaker was bloody loud.
But anyway, knowing that it was @#$%^&*, I was already pretty damn buay song that he still bothered to ans @#$%&^&*'s call. ANGRY THEN DON'T ANSWER LAH! CHEEBYE.
Then knowing that @#$%^&* asked him for drinks, I was even more BUAY SONG that D said that he'll get changed 1st and then let @#$%^&* know later. OK. ZHUN LIAO.
Then I said, "Angry with ppl then don't go." and D said " no lah. I'm not going lah."
CHEEBYE. Still got the bloody cheek to say that leh. Nabeh.
Then I said," AIYA. YOU SAY THAT MEANS YOU SURE WILL GO LATER ALREADY" and D said " No lah. I won't go lah. I also dunno her friends."
AND I SAID " HEH. MEANS YOU SURE WILL GO LIAO." AND HE ACTUALLY SAID "AIYA DARLING... CAN YOU DON'T BE LIKE THIS?"
SEE LAH????????????????????????????????????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HOW NOT TO BE PISSED???????????????????????
That's why I say, don't you hate to be spot on about something you don't actually want it to happen?
I'm so damn angry now that tears are actually flowing down my cheeks.
I was really really stupid to think that maybe I should have some trust in him. So when I actually was on the train, I decided not to call him CUZ I really hoped he wouldn't go.
AH. God just likes to FUCK your mind up like that. Oh. sorry. I not christian. ok. Buddha just likes to fuck up your mind like that.
I tell you, the chances of you getting aids by fucking a whore is probably 50% but me being spot on yesterday was about 99.9%.
I was just dumb to convince myself to be in that 0.01%.
And, ppl can actually ask why I don't trust him? HOW TO TRUST HIM?
Very often, I question myself. WHY CAN'T I HAVE MORE TRUST IN HIM??? I hate having so little trust. It kinda fucks you mind up whenever you're not with him. He's like an unleashed and unfaithful dog that is walking beside you tamely - you know he usually wont do that but you don't know why he did that and you aren't sure when he'll actually just take off and run.
The worst thing is that, this whole thing will be my bloody fault anyway. So, I can only sulk to myself. I can't even turn to his friends. There's no one there I can rely and actually pour my unhappiness to.
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR *angry*
OK. Time to say about other things.
I recently got some addiction with Left 4 dead. It's bloody fun. It's a zombie shooting game. haha. The funny thing is, the zombies don't actually bite you and eat you up (like normal zombies would). When they get you, they'll just kick you and scratch you and beat you up till you die. HURHURHUR. It's pretty scary leh. I hate surprises like when you turn around and you see that bloody zombie running towards you. I'll scream.
I hope this new addiction will replace my old addiction for mahjong (with D and his friends). So when they play mahjong, I'll entertain myself.
Anyway, I've gotta run now. Got 3 A3 panels to do out by tmr. I finished HALF. GG..............
ok. will rant next time.
Meanwhile, beware of sluts (that was what he called @#$%^&*, not me). They control the minds of your bfs and fucks you upside down.
UPDATE: D apologized. He said he didn't intend to go Astons. It was Wil who wanted to go. And when he turned into Anamalai Ave, Jacelyn happened to turn around and saw him. And he was waiting for her apology. I didn't think that was a good enough EXCUSE. But, at least he apologized.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009, 5:50 PM
For Tourmaline
The 'Womanizer' singer has been spotted wearing a tourmaline band, whichclaims to boost inner strength and provide a sense of stability.
The rock was given to her by the celebrity designer Dara Dubinet to help her
get back on track following her public breakdown last January.
Dara told Life and Style Weekly magazine: "I made the ring with Britney in
mind. When something is made with good intention, it carries that positive
energy to the person who ends up wearing it."
It was recently claimed Britney has lost confidence in her dancing ability
and has been missing rehearsals for her new world tour because she is too
embarrassed.
The 27-year-old star - who is preparing for her first arena tour in five
years - is said to be reluctant to dance in front of choreographer Wade
Robson, who she has worked with since 1999.
A source said: "She didn't want him to see that she's not as good as she
used to be."
Britney kicks off her tour in New Orleans on March 3.
Source: Hollywoodrag (www. hollywoodrag.com)
Saturday, January 10, 2009, 9:22 PM
emo momo
Urgh.I've been feeling emo since yesterday.
I just suddenly feel that I'm so good for nothing.
It's like... I'm more like a jack of all trades, but a master of none.
No.
In fact, I'm not even a jack of all trades.
I'm like a jack of SOME trades, but a master of none.
You see...
I'm not beautiful
I'm not clever and smart
I'm not rich
I'm not thin
I don't have a good figure
I don't have good complexion
I don't have nice hair
I can't draw
I can't sing
I can't dance
I can't act
I can't cook
I'm not good at sports
I don't have a good character, like, you know... I don't think I'm kind hearted enough
I'm not even good at mahjong
I'm not even NEAR to perfection at all
It's like... I kept thinking about it... it's bugging me so much that I find myself irritating and so unlikeable.
Nothing is making me feel better
I feel so inferior
I'm just so useless...
p/s: Don't try to console me. I'll just feel worse cuz I've already thought of all the things you guys will say and I know how to answer back.
Friday, January 09, 2009, 12:58 AM
happy heineken new year
This is pretty damn funnyProfile
WEILING
NUS ARCHITECTURE
I'M MEAN. I'M BITCHY.
AND I'M TOO LAME TO BE TRUE.
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