Friday, December 28, 2007, 4:37 PM
fucktard
my brother is a proven fucktard.i suspect he is not my biological brother.
and the following story explains why...
I was looking for something on my study table, then i spotted an ipod touch on the table.
after closer examination, i realised that it was mine, but the ear phones weren't mine. the ear phones that were attached were old and it was some other CHAP BA LANG brand ear phones.
So, i decided to wake my brother up to ask him where my ear phones were. AT FIRST, he cant wake up. SO, finally he did manage to wake up, he said "when i took the ipod, it was already like that."
B U L L S H I T
i put my ipod in the gold pouch and i havent touched it since last night.
so i asked him AGAIN, and he said the same thing.
i was F U R I O U S.
my god. i used my ipod for like less than a fortnight, and you fucking lose the earphones!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!??????????????????????????????
so i complained to my mum, who in turned woke him up to ask him where it was.
he FINALLY woke up and he was half asleep, and he threw a tantrum. knn.
he said my mum didnt trust him, everything also suspect him.
but HELLO? who took my ipod touch w/o my permission?
fucking irresponsible.
i feel like slapping him.
fucktard.
Monday, December 24, 2007, 11:05 PM
not a very merry christmas after all
oh well. i just needed a place to relieve all my sorrows.ok. i'm not sure whether i should be feeling sorrowful. but i really am feeling rather horrible since yesterday.
alright alright. i know it's the festive seasons and everyone should be happy. but i'm not exactly happy.
let me start pouring my "sorrows" then...
i wonder what you guys feel when you see your partner's ex flame. for me, i felt pretty weird.
she came over for mahjong session on sunday night, but i didnt know it was HER. i thought she was a friend's gf.
then i heard from eugene that she was the one. oh man. you could really hear the thunder around me at that time man.
WORSE, she was coming over for the bbq. WORST, eugene bought like some stuff for her. I DON'T EVEN HAVE A CHRISTMAS GIFT!
the thought of her coming just ruined my mood for the whole night lah. it feels horrible you know. it's like, i want to bring this up but i can't. i dunno how to bring it up without sounding like a over jealous gf. afterall, let bygones be bygones right?
but i felt it was very disrespectful that he actually brought her back, knowing i'm here also. i'm not sure if any of you guys know how it actually feels lah. maybe i'm just getting over emotional and over reacting over this issue.
oh well. so i thought, might as well just enjoy the night lah. shall not waste away my christmas eve. so i started getting back to my hyper self. when she came, i was pretty friendly to her. in fact, i was very very nice to her, i think. we acted like we were friends for like 1500000 years. oh well. but deep down inside, it just feels horrible, knowing she's someone that your bf used to love the most. moreover, when i saw how nice eugene treated her, it just made me feel really sad. PLUS, the thing that david used to love her so much last time made things worse. he must have really treated her very well. i cant help but to really compare myself to her. you know what? she's really really nice and i just can understand why david must be loved her so much. i felt that i was pretty much imcomparable to her. and as i'm typing now, tears are just flowing uncontrollably, and i'm not sure why i'm crying.
it's like, all these made me feel like i'm really the worst girlfriend ever. she's like so perfect and i'm just so flawed in every way. i just feel so sad right now. i think i've been holding back these tears for quite some time already.
i asked tourm, huilin and even charlotte whether i should be feeling the way i'm feeling now. they seemed to be on my side. charlotte also agrees that she'll feel horrid if she see's brian's ex gf. am i over reacting?
i so need a shoulder to cry on, but i dont wanna destroy anyone's joyous christmas mood. thats why i'm here pouring my sorrows to my blog.
AHHH!!!! life is just so sucky sometimes, dont you think? i wished i wasnt feeling so shitty right now.
i know i know... whatever it is, they're something of the past. but i just cant help feeling so sad. i'm so over reacting.
right now, i feel so down. i feel that david deserves someone better. someone like her. i feel that i'm so not up to his standard, like he always says. and i feel that, i dont deserve anyone at all.
i dunno. all i know is that i'm feeling so shitty now. my head feels like it's bursting. my heart feels broken.
i wish someone can just brainwash me right now...
7:34 AM
happy holidays
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY!!!!
Even Leo is in the christmas mood.
Ok. Not really. He was really annoyed with the Santa's hat.
Hope you're enjoying this festive season!
It's the time of the year to feel happy! It's the time of the month to exchange prezzies and meet up with many many friends. (it's my time of the month too *winks and look down*)
ps: I'm not enjoying much though. pretty emo now. BUT shall be in the festive mood nevertheless ^-^
Tuesday, December 18, 2007, 10:54 PM
dedicated to my dearest darling david
I've looked for love in stranger places,but never found someone like you.
Someone whose smile makes me feel I've been holding back,
and now there's nothing I can't do.
'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.
All of our friends saw from the start.
So why didn't we believe it too?
Whoa yeah, now look where you are.
You're in my heart now.
And there's no escaping it for you.
'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.
Walking on the hills that night with those fireworks and candlelight
You and I were made to get love right
'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.
'Cause you are the sun in my universe,
considered the best when we've felt the worst
and most of all it's built to last.
PS: this is not something i wrote. this is a song called "built to last" by melee
Saturday, December 08, 2007, 10:06 PM
i could be so lucky, lucky lucky lucky
oh. aren't we the luckiest girls :)))
Sunday, December 02, 2007, 9:07 PM
sweet little thing
AWWWWW.... aint it like... uber cute?
it's leo!
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