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Tuesday, October 07, 2008, 7:41 AM
a lil teary
oh. I'm actually feeling kinda upset now.Don't you envy those girls who can eat and eat and eat and NOT GET FAT!? YES!!! I do envy them!!! And I'm almost sure they will CLAIM they envy those who can get a little bit and get fat because they CLAIMED they want to get fat (which I think they're just being nice). Don't you HATE those girls who can eat and eat and eat and NOT GET FAT AND STILL SAY THEY'RE FAT!!!!??? YES!!!!!! I HATE THEM!!!! WITH THOSE RED, HOT, SIZZLING HATRED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (ok emilia. i don't hate you. even though you say you're fat but in fact, you're stick thin. your thighs are like the size of my arms.) Oh. Let me tell you why I'm suddenly saying all these. I went for a fitting just now, which means I'm already chosen for the job. I only realized upon reaching that the dresses are all free sized. I can RARELY fit into free sized dresses. I'm ok with free sized tops, but my HUGE, ELEPHANT LIKE HIPS can hardly SQUEEZE into free sized bottoms/dresses. The dress was so gorgeous! It's like this champagne colored satin dress. ok. Long story short, I went to try and INDEED, I can't wear. -_________________-" ok lah. I can wear but it was fucking tight. I bet all the stretchmarks on my arse can be seen already lah! Fuck. All the girls have no problems fitting into the dress except me. WTF I'M SO SAD!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M REALLY SO FAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M BEYOND HOPE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY WASN'T I IN TAF CLUB!? I remember a time when I actually fit into size 27 jeans you know (but that's like in sec 3) Zee once said I was voluptuous BUT voluptuous women have huge hips AND BOOBS! MINE'S ONLY a fucking B CUP LEH!!!!!!!!!!!! If mine is at least a fucking C cup, I don't mind lah!!!!!!!!!!! So, I've decided to slim down. For real this time. I know I always say only. But, this time, it really hurt my feelings man! I'll just see if I lose approx 6kg, will it make any difference? I decided to really cut down on carbo. I realised I consume TONS of carbo. I eat rice like nobody's business. I should consult weile on his amazing diet and exercise regime already. damn. *MANY SIGHS* I know lah. Laugh lah laugh lah! I'm fat lah. Oh man. All these sad facts made me a lil teary. It's making my lil black heart sob. IT REMINDED ME OF THE FATS THAT ARE CLINGING ON TO MY LEGS AND WON'T LET GO! ok lah. End of my rants. I'm going to sleep liao. bye. p.s. Actually, I have something to complain about zee. quite pissed off at her. grrr. tell you next time. |
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