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Friday, January 19, 2007, 11:48 PM
redo redo redo
haiz. thurs wasn't a good day for me.Colin came into the studio with his colleague, Matthew and he was already scolding us for not being punctual, having bad time management etc etc etc. I had to go 1st cuz i was sitting nearest to the board. THEN, he started scolding me. Here is goes -- C: "Look at this! Who's work is this!? I can hardly look at it" W: "erm. it's mine. i'm sorry. i didnt know it will turn out like that" C: "why did you pin it up when you know you gotta redo?" W: "huh. redo ahhhh" (for your info, i said kinda softly and naturally) C: "What do you mean 'huh. redo ah' Don't you have any pride?" W: "no no. i mean like.." (interupted by colin) C: "oh you mean you dont have any pride!?" W: "no. i don't mean it that way. I mean like, I thought it would be better if i just present it first since it's already done. I really didn't know it will turn out like that." C: "What you mean you didn't know it will turn out like that?" W: "well. i used wet glue to paste the pictures, but i really didn't know it will be like this. By the time i found out, it was too late. And moreover, i didn't know it looked this bad." C: "Well. You shouldn't have used wet glue then. And what you mean it's too late when you found out? What time was it when you realised it was like that?" W: "erm. It was this morning." C: "Didn't the thought of redoing the panel occur to you?" W: " I thought i surely will have no time to redo since it was this morning. And moreover, if i wanna redo, i would rather redo it over the weekends." C: "oh. Who gives you the right to choose when you can redo? you mean you can choose when you wanna redo?" W: "no. i mean that, i had no time to redo cuz it was this morning, so i would rather present my ideas 1st and then redo it" Then i can't rmbr what he said. I dont really wanna recall too. It's horrible. I felt so MALIGNED. It's like.. HELLO.. this morning leh. I was already damn tired. I cant even write properly. I cant even see properly. If I redo, it would turn out to be a disaster cuz it will look damn 'rushed', and then in the end, i will still have to redo. so, what's the point? In the end, it turned out that EVERYONE had to redo cuz it was too technical and has "no analysis". I guess he was really really REALLY in a horrible mood that day. Worse thing was he scolded me in front of Matthew. wtf. I thought that he was really harsh to say "don't you have any pride?". To me, he didn't put himself in my shoes. You know, to realise that your hardwork was ruined by some STUPID glue. He shouldn't have just scolded me. Prolly he could have said "well. You jolly well not use that glue anymore" Guilt will surely tell me to redo. It was horribly harsh. At the end of the lesson, his mood got a LITTLE better and he asked us for opinions about his design for this hotel room in Dubai. I thought the idea was cool. way cool. Lazy to describe to you. haha. go ask my studio mates ba. Anyway, some stuff about now. I feel like i'm in deep shit. Guilt is letting me down. I don't wanna be like this. I feel so confused. I wanna get out from this pile of smelly, stinky, horrible-tasting, puke-intriguing, vomit-forcing pile of deep shit. But I can't. I like it and dislike it at the same time. It's so contradicting. I should stop myself and pull myself out somehow. Somebody save me. |
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